IF ONLY I COULD BE U

...d words r sound & convincing...i dont care if theres sm1 who follows my blog,all i care is i have a platform to vent my feelings...i am sad tod...sad coz...i feel loaded...i feel grieved...i feel useless....i feel lonely....i dont know if i actually wanna let things be laid bare...but i wanna share...share to lighten me (if only this could help).
all this while i've been trying to b sm1,sm1 unconceivable,sm1 unreachable,
all i achieved was a devilish angel.
i tried to b happy when sad,
i tried to be d best but i fail,
i tried to feel important but felt useless,
i tried to experiment,though didnt end up with good results,
i tried to make people understand,but created conflicts,
i tried to be faultless but m a gallon full of it,
and as i make my way through this qwerty keyboard tryind hard to get the words just right,
i fear of being misunderstood,
i fear of being not loved,
i fear of not being...
who will try to help me overcome my fears........d answer is faint but near.... from the depths of my deep-sullen heart.NOBODY but me....i'll again wear a deceptive mask...& like a "joker" project that nothing went WRONG.
EVERYDAY SHALL HAVE A NEW BEGINNING,
IF M SAD I'LL BE GLAD....
all m left wondering-"IF U COULD B ME...&....I COULD BE U"