Emotional Atyachaar

What a sudden emotional outburst is this?
Is it just a passing phase or is it here to stay?
Why do you moist yourself OH! my eyes?
Is it a speck of dirt or just over secretion?
Are you so blinded not to see the reality?
Or is it what you want to see?
Why are you so full of emotions at this troubled hour?
Haven't you read the stronger you portray the better you are?
The world see's me through you..
Why do you portray such a dejected you?
Stop dreaming my eye..coz it's not what is true!
The real is infront of you yet you ignore!
Open up my dear eye else you will be blinded forever..
This world is not what you always want it to be seen..
It's treachery that is above us all..
The drops that you shed are real to me..
But just a deception to someone you love!
Let there be no more emotions trickling by..
Coz generally you do not have takers to hold them back..
Stop it this day my eyes..
I command thee..else i break-down!!

ODE:Closer to Reality

Everytime I passed through those empty corridors,the chair so chained in your loving presence...I feel a sense of emptiness.Afterall it was the first time I encountered reality that every life has a dead-end!You were so part of me that not seeing you around one day was a thought that never passed by.Your love & kindness that kept us all united suddenly would loosen up I did not realize.But it all happened this fatal day.A day of sadness that engulfed us all.We realized we were once again united in agony & pain that you left us as a reminance of your character.I know now that you are closer to God & looking upon us from the sky above.

The grave that so embraces you,is covered with mud.As is in the Bible-"What is born of the earth shall merge with earthone day" salvation is what you have got.You left us with bitter messages of 'love that binds us,pain that holds us & remembrance that holds us firm in your name"

The legacy of you we shall all uphold.I remember you today Grandpa coz I remember the pain I felt when I realized you weren't around.In loving memory of you I write an ode.Your love will I ever carry,your thoughts i'll forever bear...coz that was when i encountered the reality that life has a dead-end.......

Miss u dada...

A Strange little feeling

Yes! i have a strange little feeling that changes every split second.A feeling that has tickled my soul,left to console,no where to hide yet so bright..m restless,confused,thinking about what i should not,waiting for things that have far passed,counting on those that no longer are important,lost in d midst of an illusion,a strange feeling indeed it is!The lubb n dubb have an all new song to sing,its rhythmic yet not in tune..gives me a wierd feeling all together.The mind quite not in place,wondering,thinking,disillusioned,a question mark (?) it bears.Neither sadness nor happiness has engulfed me...m sure..a strange little feeling it is for sure!I want to rest,give a chance or simply say "u" missed it,how to move ahead perhaps i do not know.What's all d more confusing is to find wat's d confusion all about??A question mark indeed it is?On evaluation everythin on life's list seems pretty smooth n going..yet watz bothering me i do not know...It's a strange little feeling I am sure!

Is blogging a sudden reaction to sadness?

A lot many of us would rather join the league to the quoted words above.Unlike many happy bloggers,i assume i am the ones who touch the keypads only if the mind is to block or when the eyes is so full of tears for the world to see...For most of us...u'll agree blogging is a sudden outburst of reactions to the untimely actions happening around us.I mean i prefer writing when i m down & out...fetching some solace in the words that come flowing....i wish i could write more on social issues but my life itself has so much to offer that i feel a society within mysely!!there's a little of the society in me... in part if not in totality....
happiness perhaps is too overwhelming to be expressed in words or maybe it shuts all ur doors to think & rationalize.on d contrary sadness opens up d mind to understanding & reasoning.So what should be given more weightage?sadness that starts a conversation or happiness that is the end of all things!
What i conclude is that blogging is inspired by sadness where every single word has feelings & emotions to express...not that happiness has no part to play...its a goal to reach happiness :)

long lost

I lost u,
the day someone else found you.
I wanted to be your biggest fear,
but i realized i had more to suffer.
I was left strangled,
but u never looked it with the other angle.
I was lonely,
and did not find anyone to say you r my only!
I was in tears,reething in pain,
I wanted support & a sharer to all my pains.
I went on in search of a good soul.
I tried hard to reach ur deepest soul,to ask u questions & get a satisfying solution.
I pierced through u,I shook ur deepest soul.
All I found was an empty "whole"

When u know 'u just have "two" days'

Don't get swayed by d above words...Am here to stay for long!
What i actually mean is the last two days to my rather short vacation,in bangalore.Kant say if i'd ever get to like the city personally,but there's some calm & serenity in the air here..i keep on saying this repeatedly that bangalore is a "dead mans city"(my humble apologies to those connected with the place...itz just an opinion)...but there is some sense of individuality in this place.My rather buzy shedule (if am allowed to say) met a calm & silent disposition here.i had an utter feeling of relief,a must required break!my heart pouncing with a new zeal & enthuziasm:)
I hope delhi will have something new to offer too,i hope she would accept me with embracing arms....plz dont force me to bring out my burried feelings....coz here i am all set to GO!!
Sun kissed blue sky,shadowed by dark clouds playing with the mood of the city in the evenings is what defines the climatic changes in bangalore..something that the north seldom experience!i got to experience the good & the ugly...i feel a little transformed...more caim & stable..i hope to return to this new experience again...atleast i know now that if m down & out i could fall back to a place that'll help me regain my spirits:)
With the beautiful words of somebody in mind i'd like to summarize my renaissance like experience in bangalore.Thanx bro 4 making it a beautifull experience:)
thank u god 4 helping me re-inventing ME..

Catastrophic neglegence

I woke up 2 this beautiful monday morning,thinking what a wonderful place this world is with all the things that i love sorrounding me.My tormenting mind had finally given me some space to feel a little better if not d best!Love,friendship,relationships...everything sounded calm & stable.the only thing that could make it even better was d complete dissappearance of d feeling of utter hatred & disgust 4 a person whose been wid me in my transitional stage....

i a'm a very difficult person to b wid...i've been a difficult daughter,a difficult sister,a difficult friend...i crave for attention...i crave for love...neglegence is catatrophic for me...

i want to live beyond my world of hatred,coz i know it'll grow stronger wid passing days..for people who already know i hate de'm b patient coz there will come a day when this mighty scorpion will sting u...for people who have neglected my feelings,i warn of a catastrophic future....just as neglegence have had a catastrophic impact on me...warning you is not my intention...i truly wanna let u know that m waiting for the right day...d smarter ones will know what i mean!!!!!!!!